Greenwitch

I sit here alone and contemplate.......how stupid I am !

Why do I put my foot into things so easily and say the worst things.I seem to have a knack for it.

Facebook.its a really nice thing, you link up with people you like, you share photos and suddenly everyone is talking on a daily bases like never before...............but its not a cold computer screen, it's real life and while the happy faces in the photos, don't show much other than everyone getting soooo old, just sometimes you stumble onto a painful place, a covered sore........reminding me to always tread lightly, life can be really painful sometimes.And so often under the smiles and pretense of normal, lay pain and covered up heart ache.

When I was at school , there was a little girl that I wanted to be friends with but her mother forbid her to play with me and all the way through high school, she would sweetly smile at me but keep her distance as I was in her mother words " a bad influence " I still don't know where she got her info. from as yes I was naught but I was not bad. So we connected yesterday, as you do, on facebook and I said to her " well maybe you should ask your mother permission before talking to me as i am still very naughty ha ha "

she wrote back to say , that her mother has past away 11 years ago after a very bad car accident on the day she found out she was pregnant with her first baby.............I feel terrible ;-( and so stupid.