Greenwitch

AHHH can't believe this i was so into writing all my journey stuff down and then I bumped the reset button with my toe !

So i am going to try again and then will be sorting out my cupboard and gettin ready for monday, also have some paper piles in the corners that i must sort out and a painting that needs finishing, I keep my art stuff at the phone and then when chatting to Oumie or Keith I draw , will take some pics and show you.

OK Journey work is kinds of like a sewerage system ( interesting that it has the word rage in it) and the shit is your baggage and under all these layers and layers of constipated shit you have a boulder and if you can get to the point that you name your boulder and start shrinking it, then all the shit is realesed like an avelanche and after that shit will still happen thats why we are on earth to learn but it will move on through and not effect us ( the song "Free falling" comes to mind )

So where do you begin because you don't want to start with the boulder, you start with your baggage , your shit and guess what we love our shit we take it out and spit polish it and then put it back, generally if you are fat , you are actually wearing it you have manefested the shit into actual fat and if you are not so lucky you get a growth now you can have this removed or your organs cut out but you would not have dealt with the under lying issue, which answers by question on why so many women have hesterectomies, we cradley our shit in the womb, the chinese believe that we can actually even cradle some of our partners shit in out womb.

And western docters are so knife happy I spoke to a lady yesterday who went in for a hesterectomy and they removed both her ovaries , just because she might go on to get a growth of them to and she is 60 so she doesn't need them anyway, I would sue the bastards to high heaven !

So I finally got threw my layers of shit in the two weeks of doing meditation every day and reading the journey and then with jeremys help in an hour and half session we got to my boulder i cried buckets and finally with such clarity i named mine " a constant stream of self criticism over a long period of time" that was on sunday today is thursday i have worked on it eacj day as know i need to actually start shrinking it and its a habit, i have just started menstrating today with no pain and no back ache and i have lost 1 kg a day since sunday, eating what i feel like.....let me just clar up the other side of the emotional work, you have the mental releasing and the catalyst is prayer and meditation and the physical catalyst is fruit. Brandon bays went 100% raw, so if you are hung up on meat, alcohol, bread and sugar then you just not ready yet to do this kind of healing work.

Its easier to be born again than take responsibility for your own life and do what is right, ask God to do it for you until you are blue in your face, you have to get off your ass and do it yourself with his help that it why we are here, that is why we have free will, but we bitch andcomplain and blame everyone and everything around us. I look at people and just marvel at how lazy they are, could you go and shout at them WAKE UP ! people that get caught up in parafinalia.

Love your life, LOVE the people around you , Love the seasons and the passing of time, cause this is only a phase, this is not eternity, it's one classroom in a VERY big School.

We are MORE...MUCH MORE than what we eat and think and our habits.We are divine spirits occupying a temporary human parking space...(or at least I'd like to believe that's the case...)Let us be free from all cages...gender, race, age, religon.

And I have to start with me and then work on attracting the right kind of people into my life that support this way of life, Brandon Bays, David Woolf, John Gray, Anthony Robins, Ruth Allen dynamic people and with others I need to not take on board any of their shit because as i am sure you now people are happy to walk past and dump their shit on you, the trick is to some how learn to say no thank you and move on.

I am so proud of myself, my six months sabatical was worth every day, at 33 i have more understanding than most people get in a life time and now I have my whole life ahead of me to teach and encourage my hubby, my BEAUTIFUL children and my family and friends.

I just had the most amazing smoothie for breakfast, blue berries , strawberries a banana , argave nectar, spirulina, hemp oil and ground almonds. Yum.

Oh we are going to ask Jermey to baby sit as K has offered to take me to Malta for the weekend !!