Greenwitch

camu camu berry...how blessed are we, at this time of year I always begin to notice children with those red patches around their mouths, dry cracked corners and lips, and of course runny noses, thank the Goddess my children are have been well this winter, I even threw Davids asthma pump away !

We went up to Oxford this week as a dear friend/elder turned 70, it was hard work but so worth being able to see all his close family there and to get to meet them but emotionally it was a big big week too.

It would take me hours to write it all down but the conclusion was, we choose our friends and not our family, they are chosen with a different purpose, they are there to teach us lessons and generally being thorns in your side that you have to grow around.

I know i come from a different planet and i am happy that I do. The people that I met are so stuck emotionally , that when you start talking they actually no longer understand my dialect. My in - laws actually called me insane, which was hurtful at first or maybe just embarrassing as they where talking to other people , broken telephone as families do but now I am happy that they think that way as if they thought me logical and sensible and so much like them , i would be as dead and dormant emotionally as they are.

I sat at the party and watch the liquor flow, something I really enjoy doing as people lose their guards and i can talk to them and they then understand me LOL (yes I know maybe I am insane ) but then family politics started coming out and peoples past hurts and the thinks that are currently worrying them, things like so and so won't sit next to so and so and ex wife on the phone, do you want to wish C happy birthday ...and she said no ! she has kids with the guy and divorced him 30 years ago ?and one pretty 48 year old has not had a period since Dec and now is getting hot flushes and wont tell close family but she is worried (yes people tell me these things )and so on and so on

so today i feel very quiet and contemplative, I have a shit load of laundry to do and house to sort out again but so happy to be home.

did the hermit come before the study or do i study because i am a hermit ?

Feeling very much into dying my hair bright red and getting a tat and earring in my lip and wearing dock martins and a long purple skirt, so that people will know without talking to me that I am different and that people that are different will feel comfortable to approach me and say How dido dee !

namaste...I am trying really really hard.