Greenwitch

In Mimzy at the end of the movie there is a moment when the little girl is lifted into the air and dangles there suspended.

I feel it was very symbolic of wanting to be spiritual.

Do you want to be sooo spiritual that you , cross a barrier and become spirit ?

I think for many suicide victims this is what happens and again I have just contradicted what i am trying to say as the word victim in some cases could be incorrect, it is a choice.

So to

lets meditate for an hour a day and do yoga and eat only raw juice and home school, no vaccines, breastfeed till 8, and on and on it goes BUT FOR ME, why come earthside then, is it not to learn to find the positive within the negative, to uphold the vibration on earth with love and light and to bring a calmness, a balancing.

Is yoga not about the integration of our souls with earth, a way to better deal with the lower vibration, making the low not as low and the high not soooo high.

If something goes wrong I cannot land in a messy heap on the floor, I have to, have to be strong and silent and faithful in my belief that all will be well.

The thing I am really battling with at the moment is once again compassion and understanding as I see people teaching and preaching and shouting what works from the roof tops but when the shit hits the fan the lows go so loooooowwwwwwwww and all balance goes out the window and all watching is wondering "ammm what happened ?"

lets just look at food alone, I am vegetarian, I eat eggs and occasionally drink raw milk from the cow, I do not drink alcohol or smoke and never have, I am trying hard to lose weight , to lower by bmi and reduce fatty tissue and balance hormone levels, I drink only filtered water that I have filtered. 90% of my fruit and veggies are organic.

BUT if you keep reading and listening welllll the above is just not good enough and the marker keeps being moved as to what is considered optimal for the human body. Soya is bad, peanuts are bad, cooked fruit is bad, legumes and beans are bad, coffee is bad, grains are bad, nuts can only be eaten if soaked and sprouted.............and so every raw book and health book is being donated to Oxfam.enough is enough. The Nazarene's as far as I can see, cooked their food and said everything on the earth is good to eat, in balance. yes foxglove can kill you bit in the exact right amount it can stop a heart attack !

I meet people on a daily basis yes with ackes and pains, yes with arthritis, they went to school, they all their injections, the had medications when ill, the smoked and drank and coke OMG its a daily thing, coke a cola that's is not cocaine ha ha. They used strong cleaning products in the house without gloves they used any affordable beauty product that smelt good on their bodies and they lived through the war and they are between 70 and 95 !

I don't really want to live much past 85 , I don't want to be doing backbends and handstands at that age, I want to go grey, I want to laugh at myself. my body getting older and I want to have lots of family around me, I want to enjoy earth and I want a big piece of chocolate birthday cake with smarties on the top and a cup of coffee.

And I want to have a quite strong peacefulness within me that cannot be shaken, I have to find what will give me the certainty within me that I am loved at alll times and I have to turn away from whatever paths shows the contrary. Those moment come when life is in a pinch and all spins out of control.