Greenwitch

I sit here in the early morning and feel the space that you have left in the house, such a small dog with such a big personality, my bed felt empty without you and the nudge nudge of the blankets did not happen, I miss your feet on the stairs as you move from Davids bed to mine.

Rowan misses you and she keeps doing little things that are just not like her, I know she knows.

I still have the feeling that you are just around the corner and that you will come bounding around it, at full speed.

Just after we got you I began to realise what having a Jack Russell meant, we took on way more than we where prepared for with you and people where very negative saying that Jack Russells this and Jack Russells that and you proved them all wrong , you where very trainable, you sat, layed down and rolled over, you understood, walk, look, what did you do, are you hungry, come here, what have you got, drop it, back, heel. I have so many photos of you and in all of them , you are being cuddled and kissed.

Guiopetto said that when a puppet is loved so much, a fairy comes and grants them the wish of being a real boy. I always felt this was your wish, you wanted to be human, you wanted to go to school with David and you never wanted to be apart from your humans and this is the love that made you squeeze through that tiny hole and go dashing after us into the traffic.

Although I hugged you a million times , I wish I had hugged you once more and although I kissed you a million times , I wish that my last kiss had not been one on a cold and bloody cheek.

there is a big rip in my spirit and I know this happens when an accident happens and that's what is was, I did not do anything wrong and nor did you, it was just an accident.

Life is not convenient and the lessons are hard but you my darling boy where very very loved and I believe that somewhere today a very special baby with brown eyes was born.

Thank you for sharing this time with me, thank you for your unconditional love. I don't feel like I looked after you but that you looked after me and I wonder how long I will mourn.