Greenwitch

I feel like everyone else is on the carosel but it's going so fast i can't get on and all it takes is for me to jump and yet as always i am afraid, even though i know that the others on the carosel are just sitting , feeling the wind in their hair on a big plastic horse, its so sad...... I wanted a real horse, people pat and kiss the plastic ones and tell you how pretty they are but i know they are lying. I want a real one or a broom. And I want to stay real.They tell you but its so easy sitting up here doing nothing.

LIES AND BULLSHIT, its coming out of their ears and noses and they think you can't see it, or smell it ! My panic attacks are from not telling people the truth.... I want to puke and puke and puke and get all this resentment out of me, so that I can move on and JUMP.

So many people have let me down, its time to move away and start living for me today, doing the things I want to do, being who I was meant to be........where did i go to ?

This world has let me down, i came here with an expectation and all i see is mediocraty and sheeple sitting on their fat asses drinking coffee..........OH BUT THEY PREACH, you shall and you could and when you ask for real help they are to fucking busy !