Greenwitch

How strange to have hubby away......it's like someone removing your security blanket. Its 4.30 in the morning and I am wide awake, I sleep alot less with he is not here, like I am hypervigilant.

Watched a good movie yesterday called "Into the wild" it was so interesting and it's a true story. Although it ends very sad but then thats what normally distinguishes truth from fictional stories is the real ones are sad. The word sad stands out so for me, my anger inside has had a bucket of water thrown onto the coals and now I deal with sadness. Always evolving as we learn, all that happened yesterday making me who I am today and all of today preparing me for tomorrow so that at the end the great crasendo as I realise the message , the lesson, I came here to learn and then with whatever means the body is done away with, maybe as part of the end, so we can move on.

The more i attune to the sacred the more claustrophobic i become as i sence a trapment on earth, wondering if that is the basic lesson of earth, trapment in the material, making you forget your purpose, is that the veil ?

I saw a picture of Hilary Clinton on the yahoo cover page....there are millions of people caught up in the newspaper and media and like puppets are controlled, headlines controlling the consciouse movements of millions of peoples internal thoughts. Where the wars in China simply to learn mass control ?

i saw a old lady faint in co-op and when the ambulance arrived, she said she did not want to go to hospital but she did not want to go home as she is all alone.

I know a couple who took out every insurance policy possible and retirement package and lived their young lives paying for them, now they are old and alone...why do people not take insurance messures to prevent that ? Why are we all so self absorbed ?

Control of lonely self absorbed masses.