Greenwitch

Someone asked me yesterday " are you a christian ?" and they asked me in the hospital too. Firstly I get so aggrevated that they still ask this question to people in hospitals.

And I find that Hubby and I always look at each other and sometimes we say yes and sometimes we say, other and sometimes we laugh and say no.

I still feel connected to St Francis as do the kids and we would love to go to Italy, to learn more about him but K and Craig kinda scoff at him due to unhappy memories of growing up in an anglican "st Francis" but the other reason is, he is the paintron saint of vegetarians and vegans the world over and of animal rights, he no longer needs the church to uphold his memory , like st David the only other male saint who comes to mind, as he is special to David and we saw a st David's church in wales and he is the welsh paitron saint.

Obviously I know of mother Teresa but I feel she was a good women and not a saint as she was alive in my lifetime.

So what of my childhood of sundays spent singing my heart out at church....welll the music was good and then at 16 i began going with K to the anglican church and then once we where married we stopped.

We have tried on and off to do what others think is right, others that are stuck on to old ideals, like Ouma she looooves her religon and I would never say to her what you believe in is wrong because it isn't, it's perfect for her but with that relization comes the relization that...... and so is the muslim faith perfect for the muslims and the hindu for the hindus ect ect ect.

With out using names and actual events as this post is not about actual peope in my family and pointing finger at them its about what I believe, but that is based on what others around me believe and its the christians around me who I have met that have put me of chritianity.

Firstly they are all confused not one of them believes the same as the other and they have long conversations about their differences, which means that when something must get done, nobody knows what to do ?!! which is why they celebrate rabbits mateing in the spring, the tree of life at christmas time and the drinking of blood before an altar.

The older I get the more I seem to hold on to things being done PROPERLY, the right way and this causes alot of resentment and frustration and as that is damaging to the energy structure of me , I have let it all go.

Do you know that they have found a book written buy JESUS not from nazaruth but by the nazarene. Doesn't it make perfect sense that Jesus who could read and write in arabic and who taught from the age of 12 would right a book, how convienient to simply loose it and who disregarded it but Constantinople a greedy fat power hungry ruler. How convieniant that some guy called Paul who never met Jesus got to finish the new testiment and the church based their whole belief system and church structure on what he said ? Do some research on the internet the info is endless.

If you read the bible with logic it doesn't work and so now they have,christians have, branched into at least 10 denominations, each trying to put their logic to what is not logical and the anglicans have thrown the towel in all together and said none of it is logical and so ALL is symbolic so we will do just what ever we please. All still based on a book pieced together by some rather clever but moralless group of men. Its a joke !

Thank Goodness I have seen the light and have clear understanding of why we are here, funny that children just naturally know the answers, if i get stuck i ask one of them and they give you a really clear cut answer. Maybe that is what Jesus actually said. If you want and answer on the kingdom of God ask a little child.

Put a black and white child next to each other and they play.

Put a muslim and a christian child next to each other that can't speak the same langauage ( and i am not genrelizing here) they are shy and 5 min, later they are giggling and 15 min later they are best friends for life and remember each other long after that day. A soul connection.

What religon am I .......I am a child with the ability to love allllll people ( except my family, he he ) regardless of who they are and what they do , as I believe that our spirits are ageless and that we are here to learn. God is not going to say, where you good ? where you bad ? What did you achieve ? he is simply going to ask what did you learn and is your heart open to love STILLLLLL after all that you have been through and if even though you where a million miles away from him did you still keep the faith and the connection.

I believe in Karma.... the person that you dislike in this life time you will reincarnate with some of their trates in the next life and will have to learn to love them the hard way, by being just like them.

So obviouly by that statment i believe in reincarnation.

I believe in being a vegetarian, I believe in non violence. NO WAR ! Bombing up human life is insane. I believe in living as close to nature as posible is where our inner comfort and balance comes from.I believe in non consumerism.

My religion is love , I am a lover , I came from love and I shall return to love by simply loving.

I have just rewritten the bible as, it was supposed to be done in one sentense.Every rule , expectation is explained in that sentence but it must be done PROPERLY ! ha ha ha.