Greenwitch

Reality check

I sat on the coffee table this morning ( it's solid wood :) and pointed the remote at the tv and could not believe my reflection, is that really me , amd I that big ? Wow it was a shock.

I have decided to do something about it and its a little drastic but maybe thats whats needed as I have stayed about the same weight for the last year and the depression has left although I am still very aware of it returning and seem to constanly be checking myself. So i shall get a pen and paper and actually write down everything that passes my lips and my weight loss, so that i feel accountable. And shall record it on my blog.

I have always kept a diary and so the blog has been easy for me but some how knowing that other read my thoughts, seems to be theraputic.

I have the most amazing husband, who deserves more and I deserve more. I have studied nutrition for sooooo long now that I could challenge any nutritionist out there and yet I am over weight.

I KNOW that this is emotional baggage that I have worked through mentally over the last year and now it's time for the physical weight to start shifting. I will write each day as I have been but it will also included, whats happening with emotional /physical release.

my goal is to go back to my GP and weigh half of what I did when she weighed me last.

And my gift to myself will be a holiday home to see my grandparents.

If anyone reads this and you have not read "The Journey " yet get it and you will know exactly what I am doing in my daily meditation class and with my food.

Lets get motivated , lets get MAD and just DO IT !