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In the heat of the day , I take pleasure in walking inside the cool house all in its place, all fresh and clean, waiting for the kids to come home again.

I stand here in the warm summer evening in the garden the air is filled with the smell of warm honeysuckle and although my splitapart is far away I do not feel alone, I put the music of Yusuf Roadsinger on and danced around myself. ( put it on in my video selection, the first video :) )

Feeling free and loved and happy.

Dredging through the winter is made worth while by this night.


My life is filled with highs and lows and although the lows are low the highs are HIGH.

My soul retrieval is complete and I am healed and I am so grateful.

I WILL find people with the same principles as mine, I WILL find honesty and true beauty, for its alive on the notes of the saxophone as they drift across the garden and its alive in my heart and in my visualization, therefore it will be.

The music is the past , my heart the present and my visualization the future, so I will manifest a group of people around me that have pure heart, who practice what they preach and are in balance, who believe in children and families and marriage.

In this world of darkness
evil rules by night
but somewhere in the shadows
someone seeks the light

to be what you must Angela just reach out for what you are
BUT
Where do you go when hearts are closed
when a friend becomes a stranger and nobody wants to know
when the world turns dark
and the light of truth is blown out
and the roads are blocked
where do you go with only a song to warm your night
Where do you go when lies are told and the light of truth is blown out and everyone is lost looking for theirs

I will never let my dreams die

so I sat in the garden till a gentle breeze began
and the bird song started
and the flowers closed
and the honeysuckle smell changed to hay and sheep
the music died
and from within the house a sweet voice called
mommmmmmmy where are yooooouuuuu :)

wow its really warm here today.

The post frenzy of summer solstice is taking on a new meaning this year .

Ok so i have though long and hard about blogging about Saturday night but is that not what blogs are for ?

so we went to the raw dinner and where super excited, it was great to be there and see everyone until........

someone might have warned me about the alcohol, I saw it on the menu but figure it was there to be PC, I still can't quite believe it but certain key people looked smashed by the end of the night and I know I am silly but I feel so disappointed.

Philips talk was amazing and a couple of times I felt myself go all misty has he spoke about what it felt like to be very over weight.

It was pretty much like any high school party with girls with boobs hanging out of their dresses, all trying desperately to attract attention, others jirating on the dance floor like, ewhhh, I mean really.

The shaman , well ...lets just say there seem to be many people that on computers and in their books sell themselves as something which they are not.

On Saturday I listened to David Woolf saying go for it give kids raw dairy and then later Gabriel Cousens said NEVER, and i sat there like an idiot going who do i listen to and for me it all comes down to one simple thing , evidence. So I have thrown out every raw book, cook book, health book , diet book and believe me it was a biiig pile and only kept Gabriel Cousens books and Angela Stokes and when Philip writes his book I will be one of the first to support him . And I feel so empowered.

BUT my woooes get even worse as as soon as we got home , I just sat in meditation trying to digest the whole disappointment and could not sleep till 3 and awoke at about 6 with a upset tummy , spent the morning in the bathroom and then asked Michelle to do some reiki on me and ask the angels to help me digest all of it and at that point I started throwing up, really badly, but once every last drop of the raw meal was out, I started to feel better, so i have fasted for the last two days and am feeling much better, just a little shocked and all the while I was throwing up I could here coyote in the back ground laughing........

Ha ha ha that's what happens when you put people on a pedestal.

Here is the things that make my mouth water and what I would serve at a party OHHHh YUMMMY

ooooooo divine summer days !